it's been a while...

as usual, time gets the best of me and I haven't had a moment to truly sit and write.

so much has occurred and evolved in the last few months from moving to a new apartment, searching and searching for a job, and starting a new job. Those are just the tangible occurrences.

I have felt pretty emotionally drained and tugged back and forth. I am the type of person where I don't think twice about helping someone who asks or seems as though they may need help. There's a certain intuition to feel that someone needs your help and I go with it. A few weeks ago, I needed someone to have that intuition for me. Unfortunately I am bad at asking for help. Call it stubborn or independent. It is a part of me that I am working on every day.

My plate overflowed one week from helping others, which fulfills me but nevertheless drained me, but then when I stopped to think about the things that I needed someone to listen to or maybe offer suggestions with, I was struggling to reach out.

It bottled up inside of me, bringing me to cry one night, for no particular reason that I could pinpoint at the time. The next day, I figured out that it was just the accumulation of a new job that I did not enjoy, feeling like a quitter if I left, upset at the work schedule and the non conducive work/life balance lifestyle that it would have resulted. Although, all of those reasons were previously expressed in snippiness, short comments, and heightened sensitivity if someone asked me what was wrong. Not good.

Everything will work itself out. I chose the path to leave that job, find a better option, and guess what?! I am feeling much better!...still working on asking for help and trying to brush off over sensitivity which is stemming from missing my family.

Each day is a new day to have a great day with a positive mindset. Right?! Zero Complaints since I have my health, a job, great friends, and the best family.

beijos....